I can't think of anybody else but just YOU

Give me a lesson how to steal a heart ; As you stole mine ;

Let's do a perfect crime, I'll steal your heart and you steal mine ;

Like a fool after your heart; If you can't be mine, save me from this heartbreaker ;

I'm gonna try to update everyday whenever i can.. if not it will look dead.. but sorry people for changing the link.. just that.. yeahh.. and because sienwei can't really use the computer.. so i'll mostly update this blog more.. haha! if i can lahh.. cause i don't like to see our blog drop dead.. haha! jokes.. anywayy.. how's people lately?? under stress tak?? haha! cause i've heard loads of exams are coming up for local schools.. well, don't worryy.. i'm under stress trying to do geography! which sucks.. so yeahh...

Okayy.. erm.. i'm gonna post a really long post for you guys.. which is this post.. so to warn you guys first okay! (: hahaa..

I'm gonna crap loads.. so becareful (: okayy i shall start..

I HATEEE YOUUUUU

I LIKEEE YOUUUUUU

I LOVEEE YOUUUUUU

I WANT YOUUUUUU

I NEED YOUUUUUU

I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS

TOGETHER FOREVER

Is that real? together forever? nothing last forever. only memories.. let me take you back to my memories ;

I was young and stupid ... i fell in lovee with a guy that i haven't been in touch for a while.. till i've met him that day.. his eyes sparkle... his voice made my heart beat so fast.... one day, our hands just touched each others.. and my heart was beating so fast.. saying that this ain't an ordinary thing.. i didn't know what to do but i've finally came to the point when i've decided what to do.. to let him know how i feel.. and suprsingly, he said that he feels the same way as i feel towards him.. and the very first day of this relationship, we didn't actually love each other that much.. but as time goes by, the feeling seems to grow and grow.. becoming stronger each day; after a year together, it wasn't easy for me to go on anymore.. either for him; we had so many ups and downs over those times; he said he loves me, but it's all a lie.. he loved my bestfriend.. and believing it or not, my best friend was jumping in front of me that he confessed to her when she doesn't even like him; i promised her not to cry or anything.. but how am i gonna do that? and i just started walking away with tears..my friends all camae and ask me what was up with me.. i didn't let them know cause i didn't want them to do anything silly.. and soon.. they found out.. the very next day after what happen, in the morning... My bestfriend came to me and shouted at me saying that she shouldn't have told me.. and i started walking away with tears again.. everything went wrong; the sky was dark and so was my heart.. the sky just started pouring and so was my tears..i was at the stairs trying to run away from all the problems.. my two bestfriend wasn't there for me.. instead.. someone with a warm heart came to me... she helped me alot.. and i wasn't even close to her but she manage to calm me down... and the very first lesson, i was hiding myself with my jacket.. i was so quiet in the coner.. my teacher asked me whether i was okay.. and i said i was sick; and everyone stared at me cause they knew the real reason.. and they hated me; they thought i was a drama queen.. so after that day, i wasn't close to my best friend.. soon.. we became just friends and then frienemy; We didn't have much faith in each other anymore cause we just have a little faith... and the guy, he made it up to me again, and as cause i was deeply in love with him, i gave him a second chance; There was once when i wrote him a note which was just a joke. i wrote him:" hey! you and the girl next to you look so cute together.. go with her! (:" and he got angry and he told the girl next to him which was one of my friend and she got angry too.. after that, almost everyone hated me again.. and i was all alone.. i went to a place to cry.. and my friend found out where i was.. she came and comfort me telling me that sometimes he isn't worth my time.. and i told her no.. it's worth my time cause i was in love with him so deeply; when i went back to my class, almost everyone was on his side.. and everytime he blames me and put all the responsible on me.. i didn't know what to do.. and then when i told my sister, she told me he is a useless jerk.. but again.. i didn't believe her. he asked me for a third chance and again, i gave him the chance... and we were okay.. till the very last day of school.. we were off to a shopping mall for our last moments.. and when we were there, everything was messed up... and we argued.. and it was the end for us... but then he asked me again.. apologizing and me too.. and we were back.. until the new year started..he called it off.. but he didnt call it off by himself.. he asked one of our friend to let me know; and told myself.. what a silly thing to do.. and then.. the very next day of the break up, we were online and we chatted.. we were so close... he asked me whether i was okay, but i lied.. cause i know he didn't want me to be sad.. the reason of the breaking up was cause he only wanna date till a certain age..as the days went pass, our friendship was fading.. we didn't tell eachother anything like how we used to tell after the break up; we use to crap loads.. but not anymore.. and after the break up, few days later, he was in love with a girl in his school.. we aren't the same school cause i changed.. and he talks to me about the girl the whole time.. and i thought to myself.. why should i wait? so.. as i went to my school more, i thought i like this guy which is so call my best friend. but soon i realize i like him as a friend only, and i wasn't over him yet.. and i cried and cried over and over again; and everyone tells me he isnt worth my tears.. and i get it.. but there's this friend, he's been forcing me.. and that really make my heart break more.. and then.. soon.. i confessed to him.. telling him that it was a lie when i said i like someone else.. and ask him for a chance..and he didnt reply for days.. till one day.. he told me to get over him.. and asked me to find someone else if i still love him.. and i thought to myself for a second.. it's impossible to find someone as great as you.. and someone that can fix my broken heart.. the very next day, i called up a friend that was always by my side.. i called her up and ask her what does he mean by that sentence.. and we chat.. and suddenly i told myself.. he won't come back cause in life you have to face the fact and move on.. take for example..when you didn't do well in your coursework and you were fired, you can't go back and redo the whole coursework.. so.. i told myself.. i should move on.. i must..and then.. so happen there was this kid that i lay my eyes on the very first day i went in that school.. i mean i think he isn't that bad looking.. so then.. we were like hitting each other,. taking so much revenage.. and then soon. there was once when he threw something at me and it hit my head really hard and i cried in pain and he apologize, the very next day.. he asked me out.. and i didn't know what to do.. cause he was my friend's ex.and i don't wanna hurt my friend.. and so i asked her..and she said yes..and i told him i need sometime to think..and then every popluar kids just keep annoying me to accept him.. and then. the day before the last day, i said yes.. the next day, after school... he manage to fix my broken heart..he held me so hard.. and my hearbeat beat so fast.. and in my mind... i was like:" no one ever made my heartbeat so fast after what happen" and i was really happy cause i actually am over my ex.. and after those times of crying, wasting my tears.. i've found out that it's kindaa silly.. but still, i love you! but not in that way (: cause you made me strong(: ; and the only problem i'm worried is that, i've realized that i fall for players.. my ex was a player and now... the guy i'm with is also like a player.. but people says that when i was with my ex, i've changed him; the problem here is that.. i'm scared my heart is gonna shartted again =/

Well.. it's a really long post aite ?? as i warned you guys.. it's a long post.. sorry.. about branging about love story... i guess you guys are exhausted after reading that.. so i'll stop (:

Ashley signing off

Tata

xoxo

ashleylicious