I never knew ;

I thought it was just me.
I thought you needed time.
I thought i needed time.
I thought you would wait.

Thoughts thoughts thoughts.
It's just thoughts.
Why am i thinking so much
when i know i broke your heart ;

Something isn't right with me.
When i heard the news,
I was happy for you.
At the same time sad..
It's so weird..
One moment you said you wanna wait.
the other second you said you liked someone else.

You said we will be best friends.
You will be good friends.
But i don't see any friendship between us.

I don't know why,
Every time when I'm facebook,
i just gotta click on your profile.
I don't know how to explain this feeling.

This is why i decided to end it.
I have feelings for to people at once.
How can i not be unfaithful?!
You don't understand when i explain.
You don't wanna listen to my explanation.
You don't want to be my friend anymore.

I don't know how shall i explain this whole feeling of mine.
It's weird.
It's funny.
It's confusing.

I feel so lost.
I feel like a lost dog.
A dog that is trying to find the feeling.
I used to be so happy,
I used to be brave.
And I'm not like that now.
My heart is breaking
so as my mind.
I couldn't stop thinking of them.
I couldn't let him go.
I couldn't let may 28 go.
I couldn't let April 8 go either.
Why am I in this love??
Why am I in love?
Tell my why.

I've tried everything i could.
I've tried being strong.
I've tried being me.
I've tried to hide my feelings.
But i just couldn't do all.
It's not me.
I'm not me.
I don't know who am i anymore.
I don't know what happened to me.
I really miss that guy.
i really miss may 28.
I know we won't be an item anymore,
but i don't know why I'm trying so hard
to tell you that i really want you
and need you.
Will you give me a shot?

Ashley signing off

Tata

xoxo
ashleylicious