hey guys. sorry so long dint update. heh. you know laa. i dont always go online. if i get to update my own blog then is already very good. LOL. well. this blog is STILL alive. dont worry. ashley is always here to make it alive. right ? haha. sighh. since my blog is full of crap. that's make this serious here. (:
im in love with you. but .. you dont know. sighh. things are just so confusing you know?! im loving someone i shouldnt. why must you make it so complicated! we used to have eye contacts; we used to see each other everywhere anytime ; we used to smile at each other offen. but now everything had changed. since the day i realise there's no fate between us. just the day before that i was asking you whether can you come on open day. you said maybe i dont know see how. then i dint see you turn up. after 2, 3 hours my friend sms me and said you are there. you know my heart beat stopped ? because you were there when im not. i tell myself to not belive in it. maybe is just that i left early. fine. then on monday i went to school and act like everything is normal. but .. guess what ? i dont see you outside the class anymore ; you dont look outside your class door like usual ; you dont smile at me that much anymore ; i dont really see you that much anymore ; i cant find the right time to get out from class and look at you anymore. get what i mean ? i cried for you cause i miss you. i miss the times where we smile at each other even we dont talk to each other AT ALL. our convesation is only 2 sentences everytime but to me is enough. [as long we know each other is better than we dont even know each other names.] that's the only thing i can do to keep on cheering myself. i guess is hopeless. May 18 i miss you. but i cant take it back. i have to cover is pain everyday so no one will know. you know how hard is it ? when i cry all i want is you to be there but you just wont. i dont think i even have a chance to say goodbye to you everyday after school.
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