What if i can't hold on anymore?

When you were standing out there in the cold rain night weather, i quickly ran up to you and grab you in as quick as i can... when i grabbed your hand, there was this feeling, the feeling i've never had before. it felt a like a static.. is it me or is the lightning??? as i stared at me trying to find his words to thank me, i was just so speechless and breathless.. when you finally found your words, i was trying to think of an answer, but my mind was so blank.. and you said it's okay and i don't have to answer anything and soon, you left without giving me or telling me how to contact youu.. when his hands left mine.. i was wondering when we can meet.. when i opened my hands, there was a piece of paper, it was a phone number and a letter.. i sat down and read the letter, my heart was so touch that i was about to pick up the phone and dial his number.. but before i could manage to do that, the phone rang, it was from the hospital... asking me whether i know a guy named XXX.. and i was like yeah.. i rushed to the hospital and went into his room.. i saw him so weak..it looks like he got a cold from the rain.. but he was fine when he was at my place.. and so i sat down, and asking him.. why didn't he tell me earlier that he was ill.. and he told me that he doesn't want me to worry to much because it will hurt me and it's the first time i'm in lovee.. as he became weaker, i became scared and worried.. one day, when it was his time to go.. i packed his things before i went to his funneral, and i found this letter on his bed saying it was for me.. when i opened it, i cried and cried.. because he said that he knew this day will come and don't want me to worry too much.. and in the envolope, there was a gift from him.. when i took it out, it just made my heart sank so deeply..

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I'm loving my school..

erm.. i'm in love with him..

he held my hand so tight that i didn't wanna let go..

he hugged me to firmly telling me that he will protect me..

he kissed me on the cheek saying that he will miss me every single second..

Dammnnn. i've neevr felt like this.. it feels like there's butterflies in my tummy whenever we see each other.. i neever had this feeling before.. someone tell me.. what does this mean???

Ashely signing off

Tata

xoxo

ashleylicious